Futility

A letter:

There is nothing too dear that I cannot abandon should they prove to be lies and falsehoods.

So if you think whatever I say or think is wrong, then say so, but only let me justify why it is not. And you are most welcomed, in fact imperative upon you, to demolish my justification, for if you are successful, I have learn a truth, and I am better for it.

But to indulge in sentimentalism, to flatter to make the other merely happy, or to insult to hurt as revenge, to me is an utter waste of time, meaningless and the ultimate futility.

I do not care for happiness, I do not seek it; and I can bear all pain, for such is a necessity in life. I am unaffected by any attempts to influence or coerce me in any way by means of these. Only the truth will move me.

So I am true to what I believe, I am and be what I say. I do not put on masks, make pretenses or play social games. Sure there are time for these, but between friends is certainly not it, or else there is no need for friends.

I have no problem you walking away if you do not like what you hear. I do not speak to please, to flatter or to affect. I speak as I see it. For only when you know the truth can you truly move on in fruitful and effective ways.

And I certainly can see wrong. Do not accept whatever I say as the 'gospel truth'. Go construct within yourself with your own evidence - experiential or otherwise. And if you think I am wrong, just say so, if fact I demand that you say so.

But this is not to deny that the truth can be harsh, brutal and piercing, for that is the very nature of the truth. But to speak the truth is not the same as to be harsh, brutal and destructive of the other. But rather only when you know what is, can you go on to become what can be. Anything else is delusion, a psychological crutch and just delaying the inevitable.

So I am what I am. And you didn't know me only yesterday.

If I am irrelevant or even detrimental to you, I may not know that. But you do and you can talk with your feet. At no time are you under compulsion to hear me at all - you can even delete this email without reading it for example.

Finally everyone has some handicap, congenital or circumstantial, by our deliberate acts or otherwise. Some of these are physical and some psychological or even physiological; some are seen and some are unseen. But we all need to learn to cope with these limitations which will, by necessity, curtail us in one way or another. In some sense no one is better off than another, or anyone more deprived than another. We are all deficient in one way or another.

And you can indeed want to believe you have no, or deny that you have any, limits, and to challenge yourself to overcome whatever that is apparently limiting you. But we can only do so at a greater effort than others without the limitations, and that may cost us opportunities elsewhere.

So sometimes it is foolish to challenge our limitations just to demonstrate to, or delude, ourselves that there are no such limitations.

Perhaps it is better - and truly more positive - to focus on what we are, and to be that individual and being, for which we are unique, special and gifted, and, if you hold any notion of destiny, to fulfill the purpose for which you are born.

In other words it may be more fruitful to do what you can do and are good at it, then to do what you are not good at or handicapped in. The latter is really just a form of self-worship, which is also a futility.